’ The worst part of this holiday for me is that I cannot afford to see my daughter and my beautiful grandchildren’
I have been unemployed for a long time now. I am 54 years old. I live alone with my dog and every day I am one step away from homelessness.
I have cleared out my storage and sold its contents for money. I have sold anything I have of value for money so that I could pay my bills.
I have been lucky in that I qualified for financial aid and loans for school. I take any odd job I can find. I do focus groups, tutoring, babysitting, dog sitting anything I can do to to feed myself.
The worst part of this holiday for me is that I cannot afford to see my daughter and my beautiful grandchildren. They are all I have. I will spend the holidays alone, without family. They live in Florida.Trying to gather gifts for my grand children is difficult. I feel my financial situation has forced me to look at my life with more gratitude for the little things. I am healthy and grateful that I am still able to think of ways to come out of this. I am grateful that I can go to school and learn. But poverty is lonely. Very lonely. You cannot afford to go far because you don’t have gas.
I suffer with depression and each day is a battle of keeping my spirit up and to be honest with you I just want Christmas to pass because it is another financial burden that I cannot bear. I can deal with the hope of a New Year. I somehow know that it will be a better one. I pray a lot.